Forgiveness
two days ago, i was crying myself out because i wasn't able to go to JP's place.. i've said angry words at him.. words that can threaten him at words to help him realize that i deserve something from my sacrifices.. but now, we're okay again.. i've forgiven him and gave him time to do something about it but with an ultimatum.. before his birthday.. it was supposed to be before my birthday but i told him that if he STILL want to introduce me to his family then he it should happen before his before his birthday whether he like it or not..
it's not easy to be in a relationship because there are many consequences that may come.. JP and i have been together for 2 years and 6 months this coming may 7.. and for those years and months, we've been through a lot.. there came a time that we almost break-up because of his family.. his family has always been our problem.. he said things that he didn't mean and it really caused me pain.. i was depressed for almost 5 months.. i even diagnosed myself of having a mood disorder.. if i didn't hold on and if i didn't understand him, then maybe we could've gone our separate ways.. understanding and forgiveness is one great factor of having a good relationshipp.. because if you don't try to do those things, you can't have hold on.. im not a martyr or something but whenever i think of breaking up with him, i thought about the good things that we shared and i always seek help from God, that he would still give me strentgh.. and i think of it as a test which is supposed to be true..
